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STUPIDITY PANDEMIC

Despite ALL the evidence to the WORLD at large, it would seem there are still millions of dumbarses that can’t get a handle on what MUST be done if we are going to win this battle.

Two weeks, three weeks, whatever ……. yes, you maybe clear or you could have been infected on the last day of your quarantine so the cycle continues only you are now the carrier…….. for ALL our sakes LISTEN to the Experts!!

My own social distancing on the bike got nowhere yesterday and today is no better with winds between 25-35 mph and not very warm either. Tomorrow the forecast is snow!

Friday, cold and windy with a high of 39F and 60% chance of snow! Another non riding day, but it is March at 7000′ in the Colorado Mountains after all.

With the USA now with the most cases of this virus in the World the Lemon in Chief wants to re-open the country by Easter, he claims more people will die from a poor economy than a deadly virus!!!!!

Difficult to enthuse over much in this current Global Crisis, and equally difficult to get to the truth of the matter with so much panic and fear, not forgetting the constant string of lies and misleading comments from people who have only one aim in mind and that is NOT our welfare!

Saturday, bright and sunny but very cold with overnight snow. If the wind stays low I might get something done today after another round of chopping logs.

With over 30,000 new cases in the USA in the last 2 days and the likelihood of that topping 50,000 by the end of the day (in my humble, and non informed opinion) I really can’t see this country being open for business until early June or mid May at the soonest.

Someone, of course THINKS? otherwise ………

A sobering thought

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SOCIAL DISTANCING

Let’s get some “Social Distancing” then

Social distancing or extended cabin fever, whatever we want to call it is getting tough so I’m hoping that just maybe I can do some anti social distancing by putting a few miles on the bike in the very near future.

With schools closed until 17th April I should be able to force myself back into the thermals and take on the challenge again. Weight is down to around 180 lbs and if its not too windy 10-12 miles a day will be a good start for week one.

Lady, you must have a serious problem! …… you need the NEW Supercart!!

Now this I can believe

Crazy shopping everywhere and TP seems to everyone’s No1 choice for hoarding although difficult to understand why people think this will be the first commodity shortfall???  Personally, as I no longer use the product you can have my share!      Of course with all the viral illness around, and the TP shortage, I’ll leave the “reversal op” until some sort of normality returns.

So how  is the “Chosen One” dealing with the problem so far?

Well no matter I’m sure we will think of something, but MEANWHILE it helps to explain all this………

Just as I was about to set off on the bike …. it started raining! Well, never mind I’ve pumped up the tires and I’m ready to roll when the weather decides to play ball. An overnight dusting of snow but that has now melted, temperature creeping up and not much wind.

Finally the door opens, the odometer is reset, and the pedals crank round once again! Bloody cold it has to be said but 12.26 goes into the book to open the 2020 account.

Monday, and strangely NO morning nonsense from the White House, whatever is going on? ….. perhaps its because he doesn’t like journalists asking questions. Anyhooooo we start another portion of our personal lockdown. Truly appalling to see  the civil disobedience from both the US and the UK with people behaving as though nothing was happening, crowded beaches in CA, biker outings, city parks with crowds picnicing, and in the UK cars chock a’ block in Snowdonia and also in Scotland …….. they must all be suffering from something else and have a death wish, or perhaps they are brain dead already.

Looking for the answer

Cold and windy Monday and not good for cycling with yet more rain and snow in the forecast. Eventually got the thermals on but, yes, you guessed it …… it started raining changing over to snow. NO RIDING, and more rain overnight so pretty wet out there right now. However the forecast says 50F and sunny.

Tuesday, again no White House briefing, but I see the lemon wants to remove restrictions by Easter ?????? We  will see what the medics think and then of course they will be fired!

You Sir, have my sympathy

We live in hope that common sense will prevail

Meanwhile, in sleepy little Dolores the solo cyclist ventured out on the deserted roads and popped another 18.25 into the books

God help us all!

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SPRING BREAK 2020

We made it to Spring Break without closing the School  but will we re-open ?

International mayhem and home based pack of lies (I expect nothing less) continues amid much self praise and total ignorance! …… even had the audacity to say HE didn’t need to be checked despite standing next to a confirmed case!!!!! Just think how many people he could pass it onto ……. never mind Mike will say a prayer!

Another stupid hat and the one wearing it has tested positive!!

New Mexico just announced schools will close for 3 weeks, but they have a Snow Day if 1/2″ falls!

My good intentions got nowhere today with pouring rain to get up to which then changed to wet snow and a winter storm warning for the next 2 days.

Saturday, damp and miserable, to add to the rest of the horror stories and panic reactions. It seems like all sporting events have now been cancelled, Spain has gone on TOTAL lock down, Italy is having a very hard time, mass graves in Iran, and The Moron in Chief has little or no idea what is fact or fiction!

Personally “social distancing” since Sunday apart from minor shopping, a trip to Durango airport to collect Brenda and a visit to SW Hospital for more chemo pills and more blood letting.

Dolores School initially closed until 3/27 but I suspect it will be longer. The news remains a major source of Global panic as there is NO cure for this virus and everywhere is very quiet with everything shut down.

Yet more nonsense and self praise giving himself 10/10

Zero understanding despite the TRUE medical evidence

The political answer is to have daily briefings from people who have NO CLUE and contradict all medical advice and evidence. Their concern is more related to hurling Trillions at the Stock Market ????? and getting re-elected       ………… Well yes, having studied economics for some years I can only say that while many greedy little bastards will want to “get out” to save what they have, we are dealing with self induced panic and not real goods, but pure fears of the futures markets much like the way oil prices fluctuate at the pump every time some mini insurrection or weapon is released in the Middle East………. and bearing in mind the oil you are charging me for, and the rest of the World, is still in the GROUND!

Yes, airlines and cruises are in for a hard time for a short while, in reality there will obviously be a dip in profits, but it will be the same for ALL. Likewise share prices will tumble and the greedy little bastards will buy up everything again until the next self made crisis.

Another Winter Storm Warning but this one actually produced 5″ on the rail overnight and the forecast is for another 5″ today. Its wet sloppy snow and the roads are already clear.

Coming down

5″

While reading through endless articles on the virus and world misery I came across this book called “End of Days” published in 2008 by a modern day Nostradamus ….. page 312 is VERY interesting and pretty accurate!

Colorado just closed ALL schools until April 17th. Morning virus conferences degenerating into shouting matches at question time when Moron in Chief refuses to accept journalism and the right to free speech if it doesn’t praise him personally!

Persisting that he thinks a 20 year old Malaria drug is the answer

It snowed a little last night, and few showers today,  and now a muddy mess everywhere ….. still VERY quiet.

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THE CABIN IS COMING SOON

As Cabin Fever sets in its time to think of what I want to do and how I’m going to achieve it ?  Just coming to the end of the first session of the chemo pills and the only side effect (other than tiredness, which is common to all chemo products) is the good old runny nose!

Still below FREEZING at dawn

Two weeks have slipped by while I have been in “thinking” mode and at last it has become warmer during the day with temps close on 50F  and it even feels good when the wind eases off a bit. Therefore I see cycling coming back on the “menu” as I move into the second half of my journey around the Equator (24,902 miles)  …. after last year’s miserable weather and Stage IV Cancer I finished up on 11,390.73 miles completed so almost 1/2 way.

Maybe during Spring Break I can get in the workshop and look over the trials bikes which haven’t been touched since 2016. Need to sell 2 of them and sell the BMW K1200LT as well although a beautiful bike like the Beemer deserves a better price than $5390 which is the Kelly Blue Book as of today!

Worth more than 5K !

About to start a 4 day week, with Friday off, and then Spring Break. Brenda  is off to LA on Tuesday but prior to that a consultation with Dr Mattison in Cortez re: the reversal surgery …….. hopefully this can be done after School finishes in the third week of May. This has been suggested by my two local Doctors for improved quality of life which would indeed be a blessing as it is a very tiresome device.

Not a thing of beauty!

I’m led to believe that it involves a considerable amount of extra “retraining” especially after nearly a year off! (I still think I should have gone for a stainless model this time around)……….

However just to add a little humor to the subject there is an advert on TV where a farmer is promoting his lactose free milk which he is drinking in front of his herd of cows.

He goes on to say that if “they” are not cows then they must be big dogs ………

Let’s see    ” SIT ……. I said SIT”

Following along on the same theme, once the reversal is done then it will be a liquid diet before getting the system back to solid food. I’m told the first signs of the system coming back on line are GAS!

So, some serious ARSE/ASS retraining looms ………..

You can’t be serious!

“I said SHIT not SIT!!!!

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BEGINNING TO RATTLE

I think I’m on the pink ones bottom left

Pills, pills and more pills! The day starts with a heart pill and 3 Ducolax softeners to keep the “bag” free and then around 8 a.m. three of the new big chemo pills ……. 12 hours later another 3 of those large chemo fellows …….. please don’t shake me!

One week down on the new revised program, no noticeable side effects as yet, so stay positive. Deep down I still feel I’m missing something along the way …….. must keep away from the internet which only makes me depressed, but that, I feel, is because I’m not being told everything …… maybe there’s nothing to tell, but I need a lot of reassurance at this time in my life.

Into week 2 of the pills and all seems well at the moment except, some shortness of breath on waking, but after a serious bout of nose blowing the system finally runs on air!

The time is rapidly approaching when “cabin fever” will strike and some good old “fettling” will begin in the workshop with a view to tarting up The No Excuse Cub and Superglitz. Brenda’s TY125 will also get the treatment and then some sales can take place.

A “new” to me Rover has come up and could easily be where I’m heading. Reasonable price, no state taxes as such, only 70K on the odometer and a few extras I like.

Gotta love  the detailing polish and the “Grille”

……. and supercharged

Unlike me, it better not be rattling!!!!

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PILLS PLEASE

With surgery rejected life switches back to pills! however, trying to get to speak/see the Doctor is proving  difficult with some dumb arsed receptionists who don’t seem to understand!

Thursday, and not recovering from surgery, (thank God) and  Durango and Cortez are up to speed, so progress is being made despite the hiccups. It looks like Cortez will have the pills tomorrow so I should be starting this weekend.

From what a Durango nurse has told us it is 6 pills a day for two weeks, then a week off, and then back to the cycle which is food first then  pills ……. 12 hours break then food and pills. ……….. and as far as can be seen ……… that’s for life!……… however long that may be ??

The ultra expensive pills are here! thank goodness our special prescription rate covers them (I was fearing the worst) but I’m very happy they are not going to break the bank. I was also in Infusion again at South West and the port, which hadn’t been used since 12/20/19, functioned perfectly much to my surprise.

 

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CLEARING UP MISCONCEPTIONS

There now starts a week of clearing up misconceptions among all my medical teams who, despite ALL modern means of contact, seem to have blundered their way through to where we are today!

That was Monday, and now here we are on Thursday and ZERO progress and still no wiser. The only nurse/sec we did speak to said she would be emailing all the details including medication which needs to be picked up in Cortez for Sunday/Monday use before I check in and again NOTHING!!   I used to think Hospitals were supposed to reassure the patient in stressful times but this episode is leaving me COLD and overall VERY WORRIED by the general lack of concern and timeliness.

I also happen to be VERY CONCERNED and WORRIED by the overall operation and lack of knowledge regarding recovery time.

But I’ve already had TWO of those

Well bad luck with the Constitution

Good luck with that

Friday and I’m off to South West hospital to pick up the “new” medications for use on Sunday night! get that done and a new pack of diapers …… just in case! They do say the “bum” needs retraining after its long 8 month holiday!!!!!

“Do these pills cure ALL cancers ?”

Home again and a surprise call from the surgeon which achieves nothing  as before anything can be said she is off into surgery and now we are 3 hours down the road without a recall.

The return call comes in at 1410 when we are both getting ready to go to work. Yes, after review of the scans (which they have had since mid December) the rectal tumor is down 60% in size and under control by the chemo. The “Chemo Maintenance” will be the pills and periodic scans will let us know if it grows back again or is staying where it is. The question of the reconnect surgery, which she told me was a very simple procedure doesn’t sound quite so rosey after all and suddenly there are a whole load of risks which were not discussed during the October meeting.  What was a “nip the tumor and remove” and reconnect the pipes and get rid of the ugly stoma and bag seems now fraught with possible problems of leakage and worst case scenario of DEATH!   ……… or do nothing and keep the ugly bag! Considering all the info I had read on the internet (I’m glad I did) and now hearing from the “Expert in the field Surgeon” of all the problems I’m left with ONLY ONE choice!!!!! So the trip to Denver is now CNX despite the airline ticket which was purchased in early January to comply with their ONLY instructions. However from what I have heard, and what my mind was telling me all along I’m very pleased not to be having this op.

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TWO WEEKS AWAY

Only two weeks until I’m on the table up in Denver undergoing surgery! Side effects are still a pain, but a way of life, and seeing the body falling to pieces is not a pleasant daily experience.

The mind mulls over every scenario, questions the what ifs, and tries to put a brave face on everything, but in truth is worried, scared, and not at all feeling “that all is well”. Maybe its because I don’t know all these people in Denver. For them its just another surgery, for me more a life or death event over which I have no control and seemingly no say in.

Having this done the first time didn’t seem that big of a deal, although I wasn’t expecting so much pain from the onslaught of compressed air and the ugliness of the final “stoma”. However, I did accept the necessity of the op as my system would have become totally blocked up left to its own devices.

Perhaps the vicious side effects are whats causing my reservations about all this as hair and teeth are falling out and other normal services are now anything but. Poor hearing and speech, lack of sensitivity of touch and the sudden loss of balance do nothing for my confidence.

Yes, I’m shit scared I might not wake up in the aftermath of this surgery. I have fought my way through the 12 sessions of chemo but my mental and physical resources are coming to their end. I can only hope there is enough left to endure this and recover.

Well you hear about these “things” I but this one is one of the nightmares I can do without!!! The hospital in Denver rang with the details of my upcoming visit which they claim was for LIVER Surgery and NOT what had been agreed or even discussed. No, No, No!!!! I remember the story of the man who had to go in for a leg amputation and when he came round they had taken the wrong one!

Needless to say with three hospitals involved in my survival someone has screwed up somewhere and it would seem my first visit to Denver was a complete waste of time as it was all discussed and liver surgery, which can only be done in two sessions, with a 6 month recovery was considered a COMPLETE non-starter as there is no guarantee that it won’t come back and that a daily pill can keep it under control.

We must get this sorted this week and get everybody’s assurance they know EXACTLY what we are removing and reconnecting! The last time we were in contact they said the surgery would be “non-invasive” and robotic

Doesn’t look non-invasive to me! looks more like a complete engine and gearbox change

One week left, time to get on the blower and get these “Professionals” all on the same page …… and that will be MY PAGE lest we forget!!!

 

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OTHER THOUGHTS

 

Here I go again

News is in from Denver and the “op” is now planned for 2/3/2020 and I fly up there on United out of Durango …. but have to find a hotel for the night!!!! So book in Monday morning and get ready for the surgery.

Not really looking forward to any of this other than to be shot of the “bag” for good and maybe overcome the last of the side effects. They do say some could last forever!

Be very happy to be shot of this!!!

and this uncomfortable eyesore

Mentally an up and down week with lots of mixed feelings and emotions. After 7 months of all this it is difficult to come to terms with any of it. Some things can be done easily, others require a lot of effort and recovery. Last weekend I took the school skiing party to Telluride and was allowed to ski as a “Chaperone” ……. another chemo surprise was how my perfect sense of balance was suffering and although I didn’t fall I was certainly unsteady and had to think hard the whole time. Not the thing of “grace and beauty” I used to be, but there again I haven’t been on the slopes for four years!

The operation fills me with a lot of trepidation, I’m not feeling good about any of it. Questions I’m asking myself do not have any positive answers…….. and when do I get released?   ……do I have to go back AGAIN to have the mini bag removed ?  ……. do I go back after all that to see if its healed correctly ?…….. too many questions and not enough answers. Morning breathing has been difficult now that the running nose and eyes have just about stopped. Energy remains low and any effort requires pre-planning and rest time after the activity it makes you think…. is this all there is? Teeth are going missing at an alarming rate, and my scalp is itchy as my hair continues to fallout!!!  Looks like I’ll be wearing a hat from now on.

Plenty of hats, better get them washed!

Time to clean up and over to the Montezuma for afternoon pool. 20 players today and I get a first round bye, which with this number of players means 4 wins to be in the money and 5 to be either first or second. Win my next three so I’m in the money again after what seems like a long time! Happy with that.

Despite the Cancer it DID feel like the concentration was coming back at last

 

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12th NIGHT AGAIN

 

Well it all went very quickly from rushing round in the last week of School getting all the medical issues completed to the very pleasant relaxation of NOT personally putting up any decorations or outside lights for the festive season.

The last of the chemo, the ongoing side effects, and what I expect will be some upcoming surgery, all said don’t put the decs up as you might not be able to take them down!

Last year the cables were still FROZEN to the ground in April!!

Still no news from the Denver Surgeon, no comments from Durango and no idea what is happening.

Meanwhile we will take down the inside decs today and get them back up in the loft. Decs all down and finally after a lot of head banging on loft beams its all stacked and put away.

Monday and the last day of my winter break, a few things to go into town for today, more wood chopping, and should be good after that.

All complete and ready for Day1 of the School driving 2020

 

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